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7:D Healing Journal, August 24 2014

Part of what is happening for me, as a person with a gift for healing, is learning how to offer my gift to others, while at the same time learning how to grow and improve my upon my egotistic and emotional responses to the whole process of being involved in a healing for someone. This week has brought numerous challenges for me in this regard, especially since I have started this blog in which I am trying to share my experiences with those of you who have interest in metaphysical activities like this. I share this with you from the point of view of a novice who is becoming an adept, and I am trying to share what it feels like to be living a life that feels multi-dimensional, yet still very physical and connected to everyday reality, where there are ups and downs and in-betweens.

The” in-between” energies are the focus of today’s healing journal. The in-between energies exist in a space that requires the balance, humbleness, and awareness that the universe is a much bigger construct than just what I want it to be in my individualized, ego-oriented mind.

Since the last healing journal, I have offered three more people healings, and encountered three very different outcomes, from the basis of my ego’s perceptions. One healing provided immediate success, a second healing appears not to have worked well enough, and the third healing’s outcome may not be known for several weeks to come. The affect upon my perception is that I need to continue to “detach from the outcome” and yet remain my normal compassionate, open, optimistic self that wants to see everyone healed completely (and immediately, if possible.)

This is where I need to respect the Universe, and each person’s individual life path and choices, which sometimes conflict with my desires for perfect outcomes.

The tarot card I drew in association with today’s journal entry is the Eight of Pentacles, signifying apprenticeship, education, new skills, change, renewal, concentration, determination, diligence, hard work, perseverance, initiative, focus, patience, unfolding process, improvements, adjustments, honing skills, reassurance, investment, long-term goals, and ” any tendency towards perfectionism where you may lose sight of the bigger picture.” With that insight in mind, allow me to share these three healing experiences.


The first healing I engaged in was on Thursday morning, after a dear friend shared with me the photo and story of a baby fighting for her life. For purposes of this article, I will give her the pseudonym Nell. Her birth was traumatic. Her mother was injured in a car accident, and Nell was born prematurely by c-section, the result being kidney damage and seizures for little Nell, who began her time on Earth fighting for her very life. I asked my friend if the family was open to allowing a healing for Nell, since she could not ask on her own, and my friend said that the family had gone public asking for prayers, donations and any kind of help at all. So, I had the green light to help Nell , and I immediately went into a half hour remote healing for the little girl that was struggling to live one state away. My friend also performed a remote healing for little Nell, and many other people were offering up prayers and donations for Nell and her family.

The next morning, I was so excited to see that Nell had made it through the night, (even though the doctors cautioned the family and told Nell’s mother not to expect her to live through it to the next day, August 22nd) but then my friend wrote that her condition suddenly took a turn for the worse. So, I immediately stepped away from my work, and I began a second remote healing for baby Nell. Later that evening, I also participated in a group mediation and healing for Nell with about forty other people, where we all together sent Nell wonderful sparkling gold healing light to help her, along with everything that the doctors and medical teams at the hospital were doing on her behalf.

Together, traditional science and metaphysical science are working in tandem, as we all try to contribute to Nell our love and light and prayers and medical technology in order to help her remain here with her family.

Yet, there are much higher forces at work that none of us understand fully, including karma, destiny, fate, and freewill that are also involved in Nell’s life, and all of our lives. I see each of us as divine drops in the Divine Ocean, and no matter the outcome, we are all connected eternally, so no matter the outcome, in the bigger picture life always remains, just in different forms and in different realms of existence.

I am happy to report that three days later Nell is still alive and getting stronger, fighting for her precious chance to experience the wonders of life on Earth with her family during these amazing times.

The second healing I was involved in took place at the same gathering where we had done the group mediation for Nell. This was the monthly spiritual support group put on at a local candle and metaphysical shop. The meetings were created by Sherry Whitfield and the being known as Synergy that operates through an ancient Micronesian crystal skull that has a written history since the 1700s, and has an oral history within the “Real People” island tribe that dates back 40,000 years to the time of the first aborigines. It is my understanding that a multi-dimensional benevolent being who calls itself Synergy manifests its spiritual energy through this huge block of crystal that was carved into a skull millennia ago.

Together, we share metaphysical experiences, we have drumming circles, group chantings, group meditations and visualizations. If desired individually or collectively, we can connect with Synergy’s powerful and intense positive, loving energy. We have a great time in coming together, and the support also comes from sharing with each other our experiences about our individual and very different metaphysical paths before the session, during the breaks, and afterwards.

If you are sensitive to subtle energies, you may appreciate the qualities and vibrations that one can pick up from crystals when you hold them in your hand and go silent, just feeling the tingling or prickly or gentle waveform sensations that crystals generate and emit. In the early part of the evening during a drumming circle, I was allowed the honor to protect and carry around the ancient Lemurian crystal skull, that normally weighs about 15 1/2 pounds, to the many participants at the support group so that each could hold the skull and feel its qualities for themselves. At each meeting, there are usually a dozen or more newcomers who get the opportunity to meet Synergy, the skull of Joy as he is known to the “Real People” of Micronesia.

Then, later in the evening, I was able to hold Synergy twice by myself for about five minutes each, and interact with Synergy’s energy on a personal basis. After the second time by myself, I stood up and was re-centering, and upon the advice of another friend, I grounded the energy from Synergy, by patiently waiting until my consciousness was fully balanced back into physical reality.

Friday August 22nd 2014 was the fourth gathering of this spiritual support group, and that night, one of the men who regularly comes to these meetings arrived but was keeping to himself that he was in excruciating pain in the area of his left kidney and pancreas. I’ll call him Remy. Because Remy wanted so much to attend this meeting, he chose to endure his pain and still participated that evening, despite the excruciating agony he suffered through the whole evening.

While we were beginning to clean and pack up four and a half hours after we had arrived, Remy approached me and asked if he could drop by my work where I offer healings, and I told him that there was no need to wait: we could do the healing here, so that he didn’t have to wait and suffer until a day came where he would have time to drop by my work. After Remy realized he was not imposing on me, he agreed and I allowed myself to channel the healing light energies through for him. I began with his head and sixth and seventh chakras, then moved to his heart chakra, then went from the top to the bottom of his spine, while he did his visualizations of white sparkling light filling his entire body. This helps to stabilize, energize and open up the person who needs healing. Then, I began to work on his left kidney area. After I had worked for many minutes, I felt it was time to stop, and Remy said that the pain was 90% gone. He smiled, amazed and happy. He mentioned that he still felt a twinge of pain that was “moving around” so I worked several minutes more, after which his side was now pain free.

He was so astonished and relieved that he asked me to work on his knees, troubled by old football injuries he had suffered in his youth. Those pains went away, too. I checked once again, and then he explained that he still suffered from jaw pain and headaches due to a medical device he needed to alleviate dangers from sleep apnea. I will find out next month whether or not that additional healing work helped to lessen his sleep apnea issues.

Afterwards, with just a few of us remaining to say our goodbyes to each other, Sherry and I shared with Remy a remarkable event that happened last month when I was doing a remote healing for someone who lives in eastern Pennsylvania. During the healing while we were both on speaker phone, the man said that he felt a “presence” enter the room, and he asked if I knew who the presence was. I told him that I did not, and had not ever experienced this before with anyone with whom I was doing a remote healing. However, I assured the man that I only allowed the most benevolent and loving energies to come through, and so after he explained to me that he did not feel threatened by it, we finished the remote healing session. Ultimately, the session was successful in greatly lessening the pain in both his wrists from a fall three months earlier, and the session helped alleviate chronic knee pain that he had suffered from for years.

But to me, the most remarkable part of the story came later when he sent me a couple of e-mails to further inform me about the details of what he had experienced during that remote healing.

The man from Pennsylvania wrote: ” I am still somewhat mystified by the “presence” I felt during the meditation. The best I can describe it was the feeling of “Casper  the friendly ghost” flying straight towards me and into my face. There was a face, and a trailing body. As it “entered” my head, I  felt a force – like a puff of wind – then is dissipated. I use a  daily Medicine Wheel for protection, so I feel no fear of  malevolence. It was an experience though.” I wrote back and asked for more details, and he replied: ” The Presence- – I was sitting – during the meditation on my last knee – my left. I was holding the sphere image in my head. All at once I “saw” (my eyes were closed) it descending from the wall in front of me toward my face. It was white with dark outline features. I noted that there were eyes and a wide mouth – smiling. Hair trailed long behind and trailed as if it were a body. it came at my face from above (45 degree angle). As it contacted my face (nosebridge) I felt it as if it were a puff of wind. It felt as if all of its being trailed in, but not out. It seemed to dissipate on contact  – or about an inch or so in.  After that, I felt nothing, other than a little shock and amusement.” I was flabbergasted when I read the e-mails.

Sherry explained to Remy on Friday night, as she had to me one month ago, that the description the Pennsylvania man gave to me is exactly like what so many people have told her about when they have been healed by Synergy and seen Synergy manifest before their eyes. So, along with my normal guides, angelic beings, and higher- dimensional beings, it appears that I am now also able to communicate with and channel Synergy’s healing energies. How wonderful! This explained to me why I wanted to hold Synergy for so long that evening: I feel it was because Synergy was amplifying my fields in order to transmit greater amounts of healing energy for Remy, who I didn’t even know that I would be helping to heal that same night, just minutes after my third extended contact with Synergy.

Synergy’s energy is quite intense. It causes some people’s legs to feel like jelly and some people’s ears to ring; some people have beautiful visions and feelings; some people receive telepathic messages; some people hear Synergy laughing or speaking; and then there are some people who just puke and throw up. I knew all this and yet I held Synergy for quite a long time on Friday, but now it seems clear to me why: to help Remy.

However, not all of the healings I channel produce my desired instantaneous, positive outcome. The next morning, I was informed by a friend that his wife was dizzy, nauseous, had feelings of vertigo and had been throwing up. I had worked on both he and his wife over the last four years with positive results, so she was easily open to another healing. However, after this healing, she threw up and went to sleep. Hours later, her symptoms were persisting and she was dehydrated, so he took her to urgent care. She was diagnosed with Benign paroxysmal positional vertigo (BPPV), given some anti-nausea medication, and by today, Sunday August 24th, was feeling much better. So, I cannot say with any certainty that my healing helped her at all. It appears that modern medicine was more appropriate for her in this case. And this is where I have to acknowledge that sometimes what I do does not produce the instantaneous positive outcome that I always hope for each time that I try to help someone. One thing I can say about working with her is that I did channel much light and love to her, and that is always positive. However, this healing experience reminded me that I need to remain humble, balanced and aware that Divine Loving Spirit of the Universe will always determine the outcome.

Sherry told me her approach to healing in a single, straight-forward sentence that night before we left: “Show up, do the work, and leave.” In other words: detach from the outcome after you have done the healing.

Just before I learned of my healing gifts several years ago, I was helping several people in my circle who I was close to, and sometimes I found myself getting too personally involved in their personal issues. I wanted so much for their lives to improve, since they had shared with me their many problems and issues, but I became so involved that I placed myself beneath their needs, and lost my balance for a short term until I became aware that I needed to learn to “detach from the outcome.” That was part of my healing journey: learn to always send unconditional love, but also learn to detach and just hope for the best for them. One of those people passed away, one went a little crazy and moved away, one friendship was broken, and another one needed space to grow and make their own positive creations and mistakes. Another one was healed and continues to stay in contact, another has become a close family friend, and many others simply passed my way, were healed, and went on to their specific life journeys.

I am new to being a healer. I have much to learn, much work to do and skills to hone, concepts to evolve, patience to apply, emotions to balance, but this is, as the Eight of Pentacles instructs, a life-long goal that I must concentrate on improving, and with determination and perseverance, this unfolding process will manifest into many more positive benefits and outcomes for many more people.

I just need to remember that neither I nor my skills as a healer are perfect, and that “to detach from the outcome” and people’s personal dramas while still giving my utmost effort and love on their behalf is the best path to follow. The Divine Universe will decide. It’s not about getting recognition, or getting paid, or getting an ego boost, or getting some other form of compensation: it is about expanding our field of love to others around us in a pure and unselfish way. Love is the single greatest power in all of creation, and one cannot exert power or control over Love; instead, one must respect Love, its timing and allow it space to grow and shine to its fullest, most beautiful potential. That’s the type of healer I want to be.




Post script: On Monday morning, August 25th 2014, baby Nell crossed over to the other side. Her family writes: “The great spirit has called forth our precious baby —. Our family is and always will be strong. We know that her spirit is with our grandmothers and our ancestors just waiting for the rest of us to join her! I love you baby girl!” My most sincere condolences to baby Nell’s family.

6:D healing journal sunday august 17, 2014

I was invited to speak at a small gathering of a dozen people who were sharing stories about angels, and how they played a role in our lives. Three years ago, I would not have been interested in angels or any discussions about them as back then, in 2011, I perceived angels as religious myths and felt that they were confusing extra-terrestrials for angels.

However, as my healing experiments progressed, about two years ago I began listening to the podcasts of a woman from Florida named Linda who is both a healer and a channel of ascended masters and angels. Even though I come from a scientific background, I allowed myself to expand outside of my comfort zone by investigating her live channelings and meditations, which incorporated angels. I kept an open mind, and began to follow her meditations and guidance.

After several months, I felt comfortable enough with what I was learning, and with a little courage, I started to feel less threatened by what anybody would think and say about the idea of me working with angelic beings. That’s when I began to call upon these angels and the colors of light associated with them during my healing meditations for people, and what I discovered was that I was getting wonderful results for the people who I was trying to heal while I was calling upon these angelic entities, along with my regular extra-terrestrial guides.

Now, after four years of healing work, and two years of working with angels, I feel comfortable about publicly sharing my experiences with angels, even though I am not joined to any religions or churches, nor plan to be.

I find myself in an in-between zone where people from churches don’t really get me because I call upon extra-terrestrials, and people from scientific or agnostic backgrounds who investigate extra-terrestrials don’t quite get me either because I work with angels, not to mention the average materialistic-focused people I know who want nothing at all to do with either ETs or angels. Yet, this openness I have to such a wide range of benevolence in the universe has allowed me to receive a multitude of special gifts and abilities which have helped me grow tremendously, and have also helped me to help people to heal and be relieved of their pain and suffering.

So, there it is. I work to heal people via meditation and visualization with my extra-terrestrial guides and their civilizations, and ascended masters, and angels, and now I have a couple hundred people who would testify that I have helped to heal them of various pains, ailments and diseases.

I know: I’m a strange lad.

This Sunday’s angel meeting was created by a sweet woman named Sharon, who I met last summer through her friend Maria, after my wife and I were left out of the seating arrangements at a wedding. We decided to simply choose a table ourselves, met Maria, and got to talking with her about angels and extra-terrestrials in front of the other half at the table who seemed a bit flabbergasted by our conversation. Maria spoke to Sharon about me, and so last summer by invitation I met Sharon at one of her small gatherings, and that day I helped by healing one of the people there who was suffering from pain in her finger due to some glass embedded in it, as I recall. The healing removed her long-standing pain.

So when Sharon was planning for this meeting, one year later, she said that her angelic guides had repeatedly advised her to invite me. She left a message for me at work, and I called her right back, to her surprise, since we had not communicated since last summer. But I contacted her quickly because I could feel her sincerity and thought that I could contribute by offering to do healings, if needed, for those at the small gathering.

At the gathering, you could feel the quality of peace in the room that Maria had created when she had, on faith, taken over the spot in an act of faith some years ago. After all the healings and meetings that have occurred in her salon, you can feel the calm tranquility of that space upon entering.

Sharon moderated the gathering, and allowed everyone to share their experiences and their wisdom gained from interacting with loving angelic beings. Besides my wife and I, there was another couple who attended the meeting who had also had numerous experiences with extra-terrestrial beings. One woman worked with reiki for horses and other animals. Another woman worked with the Archangel Sandalphon. Maria shared her stories of faith when she was in desperate financial straits, burdened by massive debt after a divorce, and the faith that kept her going. Another person was a healer who had survived a near-fatal car accident in June 2011 after being thrown from a car onto concrete, suffering multiple injuries that required major surgeries, and had also suffered multiple brain aneurysms from the accident. Now, she heals people. And there were several others there, some timid, who had mustered up the courage to go and listen and decide for themselves what they thought about angels and healing, instead of letting society or their peers pressure them into thinking one way or another about it all. So it was a really wonderful, well-mixed group, with wide-ranging beliefs and experiences and abilities, with the common interest of exploring and opening up to angels.


I was fortunate enough to be given the opportunity to do four healings this day. The first one was for a person who was suffering from both depression and back pain, and after the healing, which I did in front of the group, she felt much better and later recommended me to others who joined the group later in the day. The second healing was for the healer who had gone through the terrible car accident, and I was able to help her with her back pain, shoulder pain and knee pain, and give her a much wider range of motion. We will know after an MRI whether or not the healing helped with a remaining brain aneurysm.

I also did two other healings on Sunday: the third healing was for removing a persistent ear infection, relieving sadness, and an overall energy boost. The fourth healing was for someone who was already pretty healthy but was simply for greater energy and balance. Her healing was amazing, in that near the end of the healing I saw something I had never seen when doing a healing, which were four rainbows from the four directions pouring into the top of her head through her crown chakra.

Regarding technique, what was common among all four was that I asked each person to visualize the sparkling white” galactic-center” white light filling up their bodies in order to help make them most receptive to the healing light energies I would visualize. Also, with all four people, I began the healings by cupping their head in my hands (for balance, clear thinking, and a state of mental openness), then moving my right hand just above their heart chakra and my left hand on the corresponding point on their back (for comforting, soothing, self-love, calming, and nurturing) , then I moved my right hand to their spinal column to work on the seven major chakras, and then finally I moved to each individual person’s areas of special need. One person loved the visualization of a golden pillar of light reaching from the center of the Earth out to infinity. Another person had so much strong light that I felt the energy might be unnerving to some of the person’s family and friends, because they didn’t know how to deal with such strong energy.

Each person’s healing is different, and I never know exactly what to expect. I listened carefully to what their issues were, and used my clairaudience to hear the unspoken messages. I visualized positive outcomes, and put complete trust in my guides, the ETs and the angels to do the healing work, of which I act as a conduit, while at the same time adding my compassion and love. I helped one person connect up with one of their guides for the first time, which she felt was a native-American male spirit being.

During each healing, I would stop and ask the individual to re-assess how they were doing, and what areas still needed attention, and I took as long as needed until each person was completely satisfied and no longer in any pain. The shortest healing was about seven minutes, and the longest one may have been just over half an hour.

It all seems to benefit them wonderfully: I love seeing all their smiles afterwards and receiving their hugs of appreciation!

So much was shared over about four and a half hours, and several of us are going to gather again this Friday for a special meeting with about thirty or forty other people who are going to participate in the 4th monthly gathering of people who experience a very benevolent entity who is channeled through a crystal skull named Synergy by a delightfully loving psychic named Sherry, of whom I will write about in an upcoming article.

Last time, at the 3rd meeting, we all did drumming and some very special, uplifting chanting. That meeting I brought two longtime friends of mine, a couple. He’s somewhat of a skeptic, but after he touched the crystal skull Synergy, his ears would not stop ringing until late the next morning. His wife, who has psychic abilities, felt Synergy’s presence immediately after touching the skull, which she described to her daughters as “intense.” They loved the new and powerful experience. I really enjoy those gatherings with Sherry and Synergy.

To all those who will be attending and to those whom I met this past Sunday: ” See ya soon! Love you guys!”